CREATE.

Create.

The word Create is defined as, to bring something into existence. To Create is to bring SOMETHING into existence. Today I am going to share a story about how creation of just SOMETHING has made me who I am today.

When Covid hit and the world was at a stand still, my mind was going 10000 times a minute. I moved home to be with my parents, but I felt as if I had lost my passion. Growing up as a dancer, as an artist, as a creative, I have always had a passion for just that, Creation. I was doing my online classes at ASU and had just finished my certification in Pilates teacher training. So what now? I felt trapped. I felt that I was doggy paddling in circles around my dreams and passions but couldn’t reach them. I felt alone. 

One of the worst things is to feel this way. To know that you are supported in every way, but to still feel like you are lacking.. but lacking what? I was lacking community, I was lacking connection, I was lacking CREATION.

How is one supposed to create something from thin air? Well,  what’s funny is that Creation is just that.. it comes from a feeling, a thought, an idea, nothing set in stone. It was almost as if the sun arose and my mind brightened. I can create this. I have the tools or I could at least find them and I got going. I decided to combine my passions teaching pilates and connecting with others in a way that I had never tried before. Through the one and only ZOOM. 

Here is where that Confidence needed to come into play. Where self doubt becomes lost and the Creation takes over. I reached out to some people that I knew, some that I had lost connection with, and some that I had never even met before. The fact that I could teach people from all over was truly mind blowing to me. So, I set up my space with my mat, some ankle weights, a band, and kitchen towels as sliders. I prepared, I practiced and the responses came. Some people shut me down and others responded with not only gratitude but in excitement and even relief. They had been feeling these similar feelings- lacking community, lacking connection, lacking CREATION. 

My sessions allowed me to create pilates classes as well as create an environment of warmth and of growth for myself and my clients. As the number of sessions grew, so did my relationships, my confidence and most of all my desire to keep progressing. When I asked for feedback from some of my clients the words of praise were shocking to me. I thought to myself how could I have had this much of an impact on someone’s life and then I remembered just how I was feeling before I made the connection with them! You see, when you create a space for people to grow, to shine, and to know that no matter what, they are supported.. that is where the magic is. 

Creation is for everyone. For me, it started with a feeling of loneliness and a longing for more and it turned into pilates classes over zoom with people all over the country and even the world! The best part of all of this is that this creation process is only the beginning. Creation is ever evolving, just like I am, just like you are.

People say “Create the life that you want to live.. and I say,  first, create the you and allow yourself to live it.”

-Ab